I struggled with Depression for 3 years suddenly. My health spiraled out of control and I became a mess. Every single day since June 15th of 2020 I wanted to KMS and my thoughts were eating me alive. From the second I woke up these insane thoughts attacked me, I dis nothing with my life except scroll mindlessly through social media and lay in my bed ALL day, I wasn’t eating, I wasn’t doing anything really.
I thought I would never get better, EVER!! I would try all these things to feel better but they never worked and I was just in this endless cycle of crap.
Until December 27th 2023, I gave my life to God. I grew up in a Christian household, my dad is even a pastor but all because he is one and my mom is a child of God, doesn’t automatically make me one, I had to make my own choice, and I’ve tried prior to that day (December 27th) BUT I never was true to it, until one day I just gave up completely didn’t really believe in anything. I didn’t like God very much or his son Jesus, because of what I was suddenly going through. So I made the conclusion maybe they just didn’t exist at this point 😭
But all of these thoughts were eating me alive and my health was just getting worde and worse, until one dag I got home from work and my parents were having bible study innthe living room, I rolled my eyes, I wanted nothing to fo with that. So I said my “hi’es” and just went my room, I was EXAUSTED but I couldn’t fall asleep. Until they all started praying and of course my parents called me downstairs to pray for me and at first I wasnt but everyone was LITERALLY WAITING FOR ME 😂
so I just did and I’m glad I did, they prayed for me and some things just clicked. I was crying and the lady that was praying for me said something that I hadn’t told anyone before, and I’m thinking to myself…. “omg this is legit” and the prayer just spoke to me and after that I was brand new 😜
I immediately stopped all the sin I was doing and I was just a totally NEW person, my deppression was gone, urges to watch prn was gone. And I prior to that I wasn’t really speaking to my parents, I was always just in my room. But I became happier and more sociable after that, and still am.
My health is still a mess, but i’m just glad I got my mental back, thank God. I’m also, thankful that when I do slip back into my deppresive state I have a quick way to get out of it:
praying.
and it goes away.
My physical health is still mot where I want it to be but I have Faith, I will fully recover. I use to not be able to workout but its been a month now and I’be been moving 🥹 so thats a blessing
Read your bible, pray to God. He wants to truly help you, and he wants to give you eternal life. ❤️
songs:
https://youtu.be/uA0uXmG3La8?feature=shared
https://youtu.be/-XWS8NcbKq4?feature=shared
#asmr #christianasmr #readingbible #scripturereading #asmrpersonalattention #faith #sleepaid #biblereading