i filmed myself during a depressive episode

just to fill in my #mentalhealth updates collection lol

I filmed this video a couple days ago and I feel better now, which just shows you how temporary that state is. Of course everyone battles differently and i'm not the one to be looked upon as a representative or a spokesperson for people with depression/anxiety/ptsd etc. I'm posting this mostly to build connection and be honest with you; also to leave that raw documentation of how a broken mind works.
Like, number one, I'm being overdramatic - it's not such a long time since I last posted. But that's one of the perks I talked about in this video: during that low ride, your brain makes you believe everything is wrong and it's never been worse. Which is not true! Rememeber that!
And you're never alone. There are plenty of people who root for you, even if they don't often show it (emotions can be tricky, right). I'm here for you too. And I love you.

Also, one thing i have to say: antidepressants really DO help. If you're prescribed some meds/drugs from your doctor, please take them. Psychiatrists know what they're doing. I'm noticing that my anxiety attacks and depressive episodes have increased since I've stopped taking my stuff and going to therapy.

Anyway, please stick around, cause I'm having lots of good ASMR stuff coming your way! I just need some time to collect myself. Although I never know, I can feel great tomorrow and make 8 videos in a row, lol.

lots of love,
Agnes x

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