Struggling on Youtube and dealing with Creator Jealousy

I apologize for this rant. This is not ASMR. I wanted to talk about creator envy/jealousy, making money on YouTube and figuring out how to succeed. It's not something that belongs on this channel and I know that. But I think I just needed to get a few things off my chest and be real for a second.

I made a follow up video on my other channel. 👍 https://youtu.be/jTqZnHrlAdM

Oh and if your comment vanishes? That's YouTube flagging me. Check one of my recent videos for details on that bizarre story. https://youtu.be/7483NWFl-1s