ASMR - pls watch

hello, im new to this entire youtube creator world, so i’ve been trying to upload two new "mouth sounds" videos yet each time i try to upload them they get deleted immediately, i’ve tried emailing youtube yet they don’t answer me whatsoever. this entire event is stressful. so i’ve thought to make a patreon - that way i can both save up for a mic, camera or laptop AND my videos won’t repeatedly get deleted. let me know if you’d be interested!! and comment down below new video ideas