Holy Health Updates, Batman *DEF NOT ASMR* | A Rundown on What's Happening & Where It's Going

Hayfever is fighting me tooth & nail and I am losing, ugh. Regularly scheduled ASMR content should be going up next week like normal. I needed just a touch more time for my injuries & to get back into the ASMR vibe.

Comments will be disabled bc there really isn't a need to have them there. I don't feel like moderating anti-COVID or antivax or pseudoscientific "just try this snake oil" thing that these kind of reports garner. It's not up for discussion, I'm just reporting what's going on and why both my appearance and video quality has taken a nosedive.

This is for my subs & regular viewers, for the people who watch my videos for me. It is a bite sized look (even at 40 mins) at what I've been having happen for the last two years as a result of COVID infection. Every time I filmed it, I got too emotional or too personal and it was just not it. This one tries to limits the 'bad things have been bad' feelings and just gets into what has happened and what we've (my medical team and I) learned as of late. Disclaimer, I am a bitter and pessimistic person and it bleeds through everything I say, just keep that in mind.

At this point in time, I have official diagnoses for the chronic fatigue, dysautonomia, carbohydrate intolerance, the GERD, and the benign cyst in my brain (I didn't think I had many official DX's until I sat down to write them out LOL). The pseudo-diabetes, we're still trying to fetter out wtf that is. Right after this video, I got some test results back and I tested positive for an interesting autoimmune marker known as antinuclear antibodies but I'm waiting on more results there to make sure it's legit and not a false positive or whatever.

I don't need anything but just your continued support like y'all have been, I want to keep working and making content for as long as my body allows me to. There's no magic button that fixes any of this and there's no doctor or whatever that'll finally give me the "AH-HA!" moment anytime soon, that's not how it works. Average time to find a diagnosis is something like 7 years, especially when we're dealing with the twisted horror that is the COVID infection and nobody is clear on what happens or what it does. That's uncomfortable to hear & experience and people want to try to fix it so it doesn't happen anymore - I get that, but that's what's going on for the moment and I'm just reporting on it. As wise people have said, "It is what it is."

Lastly, I want to reiterate that I am a pessimist bordering on realism, so I don't like hearing about "hope" or discussing "hope". I've spent 2 years begging for help while my friends and family didn't want anything to do with me because I wasn't normal anymore. I've spent 2 years waiting for someone to tell me that this is real and give it a name. COVID and then the pseudo-diabetes has already almost claimed me and then pulled back at the last second like cowards. It isn't a far stretch to assume that the future will continue along these lines. Despite my words and emotions about it, despite my dislike of the word "hope", I have still pursued diagnosis and management, knowing that treatment is most likely out of reach, because I'm living on pure spite. I have too many things to still do. I have no interest in dissolving into obscurity. I have the audacity to still show up even though the changes in my appearance and the lower quality of videos due to my physical limitations are an affront to a vocal number of people. Maybe that looks like hope, I don't know.

I've kept quiet on this in the public eye because ultimately it isn't worth stressing anyone out when my medical professionals keep moving goalposts as to, "is this going to kill me or not," especially when they can't figure out what's all going on, just like how they waffled on the whole, "is the thing on your brainstem a tumor or lesion or mass". I'm pursing life with the motto, "I'm not here for a long time, I'm here for a good time." Hoping for the best, preparing for the worst. Getting everything in line should things go sideways and then doing what I can with what I have. That's where we're at.

Still planning on making videos as long as I can. Nothing can take me from my art.

Disclaimers, TWs, Et Cetera ~ 00:00 – 03:49
Quick Rundown of All the Diseases/Diagnoses ~ 03:49 – 05:28
The Good News™ ~ 05:28 – 05:55
The Not Great News™ ~ 05:55 – 06:34
Back to the Beginning ~ 06:34 – 07:30
On the Chronic Fatigue ~ 07:30 – 08:09
On the Dysautonomia ~ 08:09 – 13:16
The Pseudo-Diabetes & Carb Intolerance ~ 13:16 -18:38
And to the GERD ~ 18:38 – 20:15
The Stuff in My Brain ~ 20:15 – 24:07
Back to the Not Great News (More in Depth) ~ 24:07 – 28:40
I Did Have a Hand In Some of This ~ 28:40 – 33:57
As Far As Content Goes ~ 33:57 – 35:54
I Have to Stay Working BC of How YT is ~ 35:54 – 39:20
To Wrap It Up ~ 39:20 - 40:18