Hellraiser ASMR

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WARNING: This video is not for everyone. It is horror and it's Hellraiser... there are things in this that may be offensive or triggering. Hellraiser - the movies - focus on a lot of darker emotions and places that some of us go to. I have a history of mental illness and it at some points included self-harm. Hellraiser actually was comforting to me because of that... because for the first time, before the internet helped us realize on a larger scale we aren't so alone... I felt seen. Or like I wasn't the only one. And because of *that*, I've wanted to make this video for years. But I also realize that while I feel safe in this world, many people may not. So please be self-aware and make sure you'll be okay with this before you hit play. It won't hurt our feelings if you don't want to watch this.

That being said, it did take me a long time to make this and bits and pieces I had put together sat shelved in the background because I had a lot of fear about creating this. It meant revealing a part of myself, I guess. Then there was @Jimち ASMR who mentioned making a Pinhead video and it just... fell into place. There is no one in the world else that I would trust to co-create this with. But because of him and his ... himselfness... I nutted up. And I love him for that... being who he is. He is one of the best people and I'm really lucky that he's my best friend. THAT BEING SAID, go sub to him if you aren't. He put so much into this also and without his brain... well, this would be a lot less amazing most likely.

So while we are here, let's talk about alternative ASMR. I think most of us know what ASMR is by this point and if not, well, you're on the internet; go google it. ASMR is meant for relaxation or sleep or to give tingles or to fap to or whatever purpose it serves for you. Alternative ASMR is meant to be a bit more immersive by going outside of the 'box' and pushing ASMR boundaries. The rest of the meaning is going to vary from ASMRtist to ASMRtist... it is going to be different for Jim or Tirar or Sailor or Frisson Factory or whomever else. But for me... I find that when I have severe anxiety or am hyperfocusing or even depressed... If something can catch me offguard or catch my attention enough to shake me out of that thinking... I can allow myself better to relax and take a break from being anxious or whatever. It isn't a fix... but distraction is powerful and hopefully, if you can get distracted... maybe you can breathe for a bit or possibly even tingle.

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